excavation of the soul...

I was watching a movie, called “The Dig”. I couldn’t help but feel triggered with a light bulb flash, whilst the movie was completely unrelated to the reflective thoughts that began rolling around my mind… the task at hand within the film was what got me with the interconnectedness and metaphoric symbolism between the act of excavation or archaeology and the deeply revealing exploration of my soul, that I have been digging deeper into these past few months in particular… The synchronistic flow of this film appearing at this pinnacle time for me, truly is the perfect reminder of “mystics without monasteries”, or “Godly magic within the mundane”.  Some may be thinking I’m overhyping it all as they read this, but these past few months have been the furthest thing from ordinary for me. As I type this, I am vividly joined by ancient beings flowing through me and around me… something magical is in motion, and it’s my soul.

Something powerful happened to me when my lung collapsed back in November and I was taken to the other side. Then again something powerful happened to me as I connected to Mother within the Flinders Ranges back in December and I was taken to places not of this realm. These journeys where words can’t come close to explaining the wisdom shared or the experiences bestowed upon me by the ancient ones. During these past few months my entire life has changed, I have changed… every molecule within my being is completely different to anything I’ve ever known, or at least that I can remember. My core has been activated, awakening something so galactic, yet also so primal. An instinctual inner knowingness within the glorious unknowingness. I feel at peace, I feel transformed, I feel home.

Throughout this period, there has been an influx of gifted souls around me, launching powerful programs and containers, which support people along with their healing and paths of self-discovery. Many of these programs have appealed to me, sending potent energetic shockwaves through my entire being, as a result, I had intended to sign on to a couple and experience the magic myself. It forever marvels me how I can have a plan, set all the intentions to move forward with this/these plans, but the universe stops me in my tracks and tells me “HAULT! I have another path for you to walk”. These changes of directions can often take me some time and space to integrate, I choose not to use the word accept here, because it is beyond acceptance, it is an act of grace and honour… a loyal devotion to myself where I know that I am given exactly what I need… and what I need most, resides within me.

I have had to process through a lot of shadow and soul resistance connected to FOMO (fear of missing out). The act of choosing my own company over physical connections with others or being more present within the community, would not of been a preferred choice for my previous selves… however, I am not the same soul I was back then. Whilst I honour those versions of me, the me’s where I always felt an overwhelming desire to be active, engaging with other people daily, out and about vigorously doing things socialising, or juggling multiple projects and study pursuits to expand… I have finally realised and come to peace with the truth that I’m in a different place right now. The place I am in, is a place of great happiness within myself. A place of deep healing and transformation where I am creating space and solace within solitude, which is allowing the most powerful flow of internal wisdom to be recalled through my DNA and my Ancestors.

There have been some people around me who have been worried about the amount of time I have spent alone during these trialling times. Some graciously suggesting to step outside and reconnect with others within the physical, to join workshops and participate in events. Oh how I love them for loving me, and oh how I love them for being so passionately devoted to their personal growth, watching them bloom is breath taking… but I am blooming too… within my solitude, I am exactly where my soul has been directed to for my optimal growth at this time. I have connected to something so special both within me and all around me. Every single one of us grows within different flow, and the flow I have chosen these past few months, perhaps even longer, has been that of my own.

I have read many awe inspiring books written by influential teachers who share their experiences of incredible universal gifts of enlightenment gained within silence and solitude… whilst I am so far from reaching the heavenly heights they have, I feel so thankful to be experiencing a taste of what is possible within such a space.

I do not share this to boast of my growth, but in hope to demonstrate the truth that is available to us all… and that truth is, everything you need, every single gift to help you heal and grow… IS WITHIN YOU!

I am the change I had been waiting for, and you are the phenomenal change you have been waiting for… within the solitude and silence lays an endless bounty of wisdom that only your soul can share with you and teach you, just as mine has been sharing with me <3